Life

Again I havent posted in a while....

But i have a pretty busy life.

NO JOKE!

this is the first weekend i havent been in New Orleans dancing in 3 weeks.

What a life i have though.

I just watched a movie that made me super sad.

Its called Charly.

Its about the struggles life brings.

But also the lessons we learn from them.

Ive been scared lately.

Life is going by so very fast.

Each moment i look at things that i am going to miss.

My dogs.

Mary-Catherine.

My parents.

and so much more.

I went to the dentist the other day and the lady told me life will never be the same.

your home will never be your home.

And that scares me.

I fear change.

Which is human nature, but its not good.

I fear even the good change.

I guess thats why i dont become close to most people.

Because i fear that the change will bring them out of my life.

I can pretty much name the people that I am closest too, with my 10 fingers.

The people that i trust more than anything, but also the ones that i trust the least.

Does that make since?

Its usually the ones that you trust the most, that you fear that they will break yout heart.

My parents, the ones I fear to leave the most.

Mary-Catherine, the one i confide with, my best freind.

Whitney, the one who lives half a world away, but the one who is always there.

Mckenzie, my greatest example.

Syd.. the one who i fear the the most to live without.

Brent, the one that knows the most about me, my very best friend.....

Now that i think about it there is more than ten.

All of my family.

My cousin katie, who i wish i could see more.

so much more.

I am so lucky to have people that i cant live without, because then id be pretty lonely.

And that is my greatest fear.....

To end up alone.

Because i fear, to trust,I fear change.

But i have so much more than that fear.

Because i know fear isnt a Godly attribute.

That with him at my side i can move past fear and never be alone.

I will live and go and do what he would have me do.

Because it is then, that i know that whatever happens, whoever leaves my life, i will be all right.

The ones I love.........

I love every moment.